I Need Thee

a couple weeks ago, my friend Brian gave his testimony in front of about 30 people.  it was really great!  i was really encouraged by his faith and journey with God.  one part that stood out to me was when he was praying for his caterpillar (another story entirely ;)  )  he said that it was pivotal part of his faith because he praying that his caterpillar would come back to life.  he thought he killed it after he had taken so much care to raise it.  he said to God, “i need you to heal my caterpillar.  i need you to make him better.  God, i need you to do this for me.”

when i pray, i rarely say “i need you, God.”  sometimes i feel demanding like i am forcing God to do something for me.  but hearing Brian say it, i heard his sincerity.  he didn’t have a demanding tone, but rather a desperate request for God.  i thought about it, and i realized that i don’t say “i need you” because of 2 things.  first, i ask God to do things knowing that he can, but often times wondering if he will.  i know God has the power to change, but i feel like my request isn’t “good enough” or “important enough” or not part of God’s plan.  of course i’d be nice for it to be answered, but i tell myself, “i guess it doesn’t have to be answered.”  which leads to my second reason–i don’t put all of my faith in my requests.  when saying “i need you,” i put my full trust and reliance on God to answer.  like there is no alternative but God.

but i should rely on God.  God is good, always.  he is waiting for my requests and for me to answer them.  he wants to give me good things and show me how much he loves me.  no matter my request, God wants to hear it.  he will lead me through hard things, but safely.  God wants to be a part of every single aspect of my life.  God wants me to rely on him in everything and provide for me.

so God, i need you.  i really need you and i am putting my trust in you.

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